Reflections on 2009

I would have to say 2009 was the toughest year of my life. Just a lot of things happened.I had a bitter attitude and an unforgiving heart towards the events of last year. It was also the best year because I had God to comfort and give me strength. I grew so much in my walk with Him. That is what matters. He is everything I need

His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,
Before even when I was a baby Christian I was still weak I was still spoon feed and I was still selfish.- 2 Peter 1:3 ESV

Reflecting on this past year, I've discovered a lot of things about myself in the midst of my hardest times. I am sustained and strengthened by Him. Oh, how He loves us so. God is good even when life isn't and the best part is that He never changes. (Hebrews 13:8; Malachi 3:6) I complained, whined, and cried but I'm glad I didn't have it my way. These trials exposed the pride and bitterness of my heart. Through these, I learned that I want God's way. He has a perfect and Sovereign purpose, will and timing. God is so good to me. so good. I cannot even explain it in words. I've heard that God places the toughest burdens on those who can carry the most? But He will never give you more than you can bear (1 Corinthians 10:13) I am so thankful for everything that He has blessed me with. Through all the tears and trials in life, He was always there guiding me. I cannot even imagine life with God. I would still be a lost wandering soul if I wasn't redeemed and regenerated.

"I would rather be with God in a storm than anywhere else without Him."

I still have a lot of maturing to do as a follower of Christ. My happiness isn't from outward appearances, circumstances, or when life is smooth. It stems from an everlasting eternal joy that only Christ can give. ahhhh I just love Him so much. Every day is a gift. Every day is a good day because it is the day the Lord has made (Psalm 118:24) Maybe some people would wonder why I'm joyful. They might think that the perfect circumstance, the right person, and that materialistic item will give them fulfillment. That's nothing at all apart from Jesus. The day I realized my relationship with God alone is all I need, was the day my life transformed. My walk with Him deepened. I am not entitled to a good life, but I have the only life. And that's all I need. This past year has been sanctifying I am looking forward to 2010 as another year to serve and glorify Him!